Sigh..

Happy that it's vacation period but sad that I am so in need of money.. Smiles then downhearted

Everything needs money. And it's so real.

The compulsory but 'makes me worried' necessities

• Need money to sign up for a new facial package when one finishes.

If skin is not taken care of, u seriously got to spend a lot more. =(

• Need money to buy good books.

They are so expensive to get for your fashion studies and there are a lot of them -.-

• Need money to pay for seamstress for making clothes and buying all the materials

• Need money for those expensive color pencils/markers/boards and all kind of sch materials

If we buy cheap and lousy ones, they wont last and give u bad results 'both your grades and quality of work' >.<

Need money for some leisure and entertainment.
If we don't relax and enjoy to balance the workload, i think depression will come and find u in your hectic world.

I have to earn more extra dollars for this vacation.


Sometimes i really envy people who can buy and do many things that they want to. Like easily buying designers' bags or their favorite things all the time, don't need to hesitate a second whether to spend the money to do something.

But i still and have always hold the thought that many other people can still enjoy or own many different forms of happiness, although the above may be a little to difficult in the daily lives of many.

Or maybe it's because i am being obscured by the temptations of those real existing top wealthy lives and lavish goods. Maybe sometimes, i am wanting for too much that sometimes when i am offered or given something, i find it nothing that i don't even remember just after awhile.

But i still care and mind a lot when people help me and often loved the simple yet sweet lives like enjoying great food at a dirty hawker place with my loved one so much and baking something for him with your own hands and no one can pay to do so.

Or maybe because i simply want to have a bit of those expensive lives to play a small percentage in my life so much while staying with my very own life now with families and my dear whom i love and who loves and cares for me so much.

Maybe i should tell myself to be happy with my ok-to-go life. I can love, school, eat, sleep, enjoy good food, entertainment and shopping, it is already very fortunate compared to many who cant even have one or two of these. Next time when i get older, then i will earn and treat myself with some of those expensive desires.

But i feel so sad sometimes that i will easily get a little unhappy and end up hurting people i love sometimes when i cant do some things that i want.